Subarashiki Sekai

"Still you're an amazing artist, Neku!" Abby praised.

Neku flushed a little. Even though all of Japan raved that he was the next greatest thing since CAT, it was still a little overwhelming and odd to hear someone praise him about his artwork, especially directly to his face. His confidence that he might actually amount to something in the art field grew a little. 

"Ah, Abby here you go. The samples that I need you to run tests on." 

Neku turned around towards the source of the new voice. Standing before him was man getting on his years. Kind eyes twinkled behind the glasses and Neku couldn't help but grin as he heard a song that sang of past adventures and wild stories with a gentle touch and kind word. This was the type of man Neku would have imagined his grandfather to be. 

"Ducky! Thank you!" Abby all but hugged the older man. She took the samples out of Ducky’s hands. 

"And who is this?" Ducky asked, gesturing to Neku.

Neku bowed respectfully. "Neku Sakuraba. I'm a witness."

"Ah, I'm Doctor Mallard, the ME. But please, call me Ducky," Ducky introduce himself, returning the bow. 

Neku blinked a little. What...? 

"ME stands for medical examiner. You might have seen Ducky examining the body at the scene," Abby explained before Neku could ask. Then turning to Ducky she said, "Neku's first language isn't English." 

Ducky nodded in understanding. "Ah yes, Jethro mentioned it in passing as he came down earlier for the preliminary autopsy report."

Neku blinked once more. Lost again. "Au-top-sy? Jethro?" he asked.

"Autopsy is examining of the body to find out the cause of death, because sometimes even though you see someone shot, the actual reason why they died might be because they bled out. Other things we can find out things like when they died and confirm their identity. Jethro is Agent Gibbs," Abby explained. 

"Oh." Well Neku's English was improving faster then 7 years of teaching in middle and high school. At the rate things were being explained to him, Neku would go back with a full understanding of how to run an entire crime scene in English. 

"What is your native tongue, if I may ask, Neku?" Ducky asked. 

"Nihongo... damn. I mean Japanese," Neku quickly corrected himself. 

"Ah, the Continent of the Rising Sun," Ducky said. "It reminds me of a time that I visit that place myself. I was there for a conference when I had met the most unusual person. He was a young boy at the time but had the most fascinating stories. Told me about..."

"Neku Sakuraba?" A voice interrupted Ducky's story.

A young man, probably younger then Agent DiNozzo, enter the lab wearing a crisp tan suit. Neku blinked rapidly. This was a little odd. The song he heard from that man was quiet, Neku had to strain to hear it. When he finally could hear it clearly, he was surprise that song was strong and steady like a march. Two contradicting elements. Marches were generally loud and fast, not soft and quiet. Which meant the man before him, while a loyal person underneath, was probably suffering from either self-confidence issues or simple didn't know he had all this inner strength. 

"McGee!" Abby said happily. Time smiled back at her.

"Hey, Abby. This is Neku right? Gibbs wants me to take his statement about what he saw if you're done with him," Tim said. 

"Right, right. Neku this is Special Agent Timothy McGee. Our fellow computer geek and secret author in our fine group," Abby introduced. Tim gave Neku a small wave. 

"Author? Really?" Neku asked. He was surprised by this. Nothing had even suggested that this man was a writer. Neku examined Tim's song a closer. It was subtle, but he found the traces of high imagination lingering in the song. 

Beside him, Tim's face grew red from embarrassment. "Abby!" Tim started. "I'm sure he doesn't want to hear about that." 

Abby ignored him. Tim was so fun to tease. He had no problem telling people he’s wrote a book, but only to the people who had never met the “people” whom Tim had based his characters on. "Yup. He's written two books to far," Abby said with a mischief grin on her face.  

"What are the titles? Are they translated into Japanese?" Neku asked. He was curious to see what the writing of someone who had a unique song like Agent McGee would be like. It would undoubtedly prove to be a good book. 

"Can do you one better, Neku." Abby reached for two books on her bookshelves. "You can read them as soon as McGee finishes taking your statement," she said cheerfully. Abby handed the two books to Neku. "Tell me if you notice anything strange about them," she finished with a smirk. 

Neku blinked. Strange? They had to be bestsellers given the gold sticker on the cover. What would be strange about them? He open the first book and started reading as McGee lead him out the door and upstairs to take his statement.

----

"Tony!" 

Tony straighten up as Gibbs came into the bullpen with a fresh cup of coffee in hand. Tony was the only one in the bullpen at the moment as Tim was taking Neku's statement and Ziva was off checking up on Abby. "Our kid is definitely Dante Sinclair. His father demands we catch the bastard that did this. Also mentioned that Dante had some problems with bullies at school. It would explain the bruises Ducky found his body..." Tony trailed off. 

Ducky had discovered that aside from the gunshot wound, the kid had several old bruises that were in various stages of healing. Closer examination revealed old scars and a hairline fracture in his arm. Someone had beaten the kid hard and regularly. 

Gibbs raised his eyebrow. "But you don't think it's just schoolhouse bullies do you." It came out as a statement and not a question. Mentally he swore in his head. Abuse cases always hit Tony hard for they always cut a little close to home for his lead agent. Gibbs found out the hard away the first time they had worked an abused child case together. Tony was miserable for weeks after that case to the point where nothing short of an intervention of a combination of Gibbs, Abby and Ducky with some really good alcohol and a movie marathon finally coaxed the younger man into telling his story. 

"No," Tony confirmed, feeling his throat tighten. Just seeing the multiple bruises on the kid was enough to open the floodgates of his memories. He was suddenly grateful that the rest of the team was somewhere else. 

Gibbs felt his protective parental instinct arise as a haunted look appeared in Tony's eyes. Every time he saw that look, Gibbs sorely wished to be able to meet DiNozzo Senior in a dark alleyway. "You're staying with me this week, Tony," Gibbs ordered softly. He never liked leaving Tony alone during cases like these. It tend to prove to be destructive. 

Tony nodded, relieved by Gibbs offer. "Thanks Boss." 

Gibbs just smiled.

"Boss!" Tim came rushing into the bullpen. 

"Whatcha got McGee?" Gibbs asked. The tense atmosphere blowing away. 

"Finished interviewing Neku," Tim said, holding up a folder. "According to him, he went out for a walk around 7pm, having every intention of looking for something to eat. The hotel help desk told him about a nice restaurant, Tom's, about three blocks down that was affordable and had good food instead of something like fast food. Around 7:30pm he was leaving Tom's with his dinner in hand. That was when he passed a street when he heard yelling. He decided to investigate the noise. As he made his way into the alleyway, he saw two people in the distance fighting, and as they stumbled out into the light of a streetlamp, the older man shot the kid point blank in the chest. He said he must fell into shock, because he doesn't completely recall the direction the man took off in, but he managed to make his way back to Tom's to call for help. That was around 8:30. The Local LEOs showed up around 9:05 and at 9:20 discovered the kid's ID and called us." 

"Why is Neku here in the states anyways?" Gibbs asked. The kid was staying in a hotel, and given that he hadn't had any hysteric parents show up yet, Neku was here by himself. Didn't sound like his parents cared too much if he was here in a country that he barely understood the language. 

Tim nodded. "I asked about that. He said he's here because of an art competition. He got the invitation a few months ago and flew here five days ago. I checked with his hotel, his plane ticket and the company hosting the art competition. His story checks out."

"He got invited?" Tony asked. "He must be good. You don't go inviting some kid from another country on a whim." 

Tim chuckled a little. Neku had gone red in the face when Tim got around to asking that. "Yeah. Apparently his alias is some super artist that all of Japan recognized. He's artwork is featured all over his hometown along with fellow super artist CAT." 

"And his parents?" Gibbs asked.

Tim shuffled nervously for a second. He knew absent parents never sat well with Gibbs. "Well he didn't really want to talk about it, but he said they were busy with work and couldn't come. Plus it's currently summer break for him, so he was allowed to go by himself. He's 18, so I guess his parents figured he was old enough to come to the states alone."

Gibbs felt a pulse of a headache coming. He would never understand why parents would want to ignore their child. People like that didn't deserve kids in the first place. 

"Ziva, what did Abby have?" Gibbs asked as the Mossard Officer came into view. 

"Not much, she match the bullet to .45 Caliber, Colt M1911. She was unable to find any pull any prints from the crime scene except the victim, but she's expanding her search. Surveillance surrounding the street show a Blue Honda Civic pulling up to an alleyway around 8pm," Ziva explained. 

"Alright then," Gibbs said. "Ziva you --"

"Check the DMV records for all Blue Honda Civic got it."

"McGee, I want everything you can find on the Sinclair Family, everything."

"On it Boss."

"DiNozzo ---"

"Excuse me."

Gibbs stopped in mid-sentence. 

Neku doesn't like to remember his father.

While he struggles to remember his mother, he had no problem trying to block out all memories of his father. Personally, he believes Aigo, his uncle, is actually more of a father to him then his biological one was ever. Aigo is rarely home and far from the ideal parent, but at least he cares and loves Neku as much as he possibly can. 

Neku's father is the reason why Neku's mother is dead.

---

It was a rare occurance.

Neku and Tam were left next to each other in the middle of the street. It wasn't that they were on bad terms, merely that whenever Neku met her and Asho, Tam was always talking to Joshua and Asho was always talking to him.

But today Joshua is nowhere in sight, and Asho is busy running around trying to find something.

"So..." Neku starts. His gut feeling was screaming something at him that this girl was dangerous, but he choose to ignore it for now. After all anyone who was friends with Joshua had to be considered dangerous on some level, himself included.

Tam merely tilts her head sightly, her iced blue eyes studying Neku carefully. Neku fidgets a little, uncomfortable by her glaze. Then bluntly, Tam asks,  "Are you in love with Joshua, Neku?"

----

In another lifetime, Neku would become Conductor.

Joshua would make the offer to him in passing, a few years after the game had ended and everyone had all moved on with their lives.

Oh there would be a fight with Joshua for suggesting something as insane as that. Neku would fight against it for months until Sanae finally took pity on his boss and sat Neku down to explain how and why the Reaper Game is run the way it is.

Neku would finally calm down. No one had explained to him that Reaper Game was actually necessary and that becoming a noise actually help with soul refinement and not the destruction of it. He would sit and think about it for many days until he finally gave Joshua an answer of 'yes'.

Joshua actually smile at that, but wisely choose not to inform Neku that in reality Neku had already been Conductor since the day he defeated Megumi. Because defeating a Conductor is no easy task, it requires a large amount of imagination and willpower, not to mention the ability to hear Shibuya's music. Neku had all of that. Like the Composer seat, the Conductor seat can be earned by defeating the previous Conductor. Neku's reaper wings had been flickering in and out of focus since.

---

($329.25  + 90 + 50 = 469.25)
*dies* omg....

Well despite being sick, having little to no sleep, insane long hours, barely anytime to enjoy the con, I think everything went fairly well. >>

I made about $400 in sales (which after removing cost of materials, ticket, table, and what I spent) equals to be about 140 in profit left over.

3D origami was actually a huge hit... @.@
I sold
6 pikachus
3 moogles
3 clouds
1 axel
2 chocobos
1 white mushroom heartless
1 basket
2 swans

Pikachu was huge hit. I can't tell if it's cause it look cute, or because pokemon was "in" this year.

While I didn't sell as many I did sell quite a few bookmarkers. So I'll probably make a few more with cute phrase and what nots, and take them again next year (just make like 5 of each or so)

I will raise my prices next year for them. People were telling me I was selling them too cheap... but of course people who are telling me this are probably working adults and I'm thinking like a kid (and most other kids at the con who don't exactly work) and anything over $20 dollars shy away from...
I'm thinking
20-25 for Moogle size
25-30 for cloud size

at least. Way too much time if I have to do more then that...

Pillows did kinda well. I'll probably make 4 every year, it seems to be just the right number to sell. (well actually I sold five...)

I think... I'll be doing 3D origami next year... so here's a bunch of suggestions

Roxas (perhaps a set with axel? maybe the two of them holding matching hearts, or sea salt ice cream. actually everyone thought cloud was roxas... xD)
Catutar  (perhaps a set with moogle and chocobo?)
Squall/leon (gotta figure out what to use for fur on his jacket, I'm thinking cotton balls)
Neku (already working on him)
Riku (KH2 outfit)
Sora? (possibly, his outfit is hard....)
Japanese Pudding (yellow with brown top and cute O3O or :) faces)

If I'm really insane, I'll do the entire organization XIII (that would actually be a fun project... if it wouldn't take forever to do) or that huge dragon (gonna buy those instructions damnit!)

Note to self, I already pre-register for next year, at $90.

I think my drawings are improving though. :/ Just a little not alot though. Hmmm

Oh... I wonder... if I try and make something really really tiny... >> << >> Maybe I'll go try and make an Axel. >> *runs to find black paper*

Oh note to self: Also have material and supplies to make 2 more pillowcases, hats, and one drawstring backpack.

Hahaha! I do love the writing mood. The ideas just spill continuously. xD So was playing around with the story of Double Arts (great story, really depressing that it's been cut and thus we'll never know the ending. It had so much potential). Decided to do what I do best, adapt and write. With KH of course, my current obsession. So please ignore the following rambling. xD

There were three or four different versions the idea.

Heartless Disease = Troy
In the story Troy is spread by touching and is known as the Disappearing Disease. Once you have too much poison in your system you go into seizures and literally disappear. Heartless Disease works the same way only it's your heart that falls into darkness. If you don't fade away into nothing, you become a nobody, who is an empty shell of their former self, with no memories and almost no emotions like a robot. They can do daily tasks, but they are unresponsive, do not talk or express feeling. It's a fate worse then death as they just waste away. Heartless Disease can be prolong by giving Heart Energy to person. Only people with strong hearts can do this. Ultimately the Heartless Disease is caused by Heartless which have been leaking out into the world because the Organization has open the door to Kingdom Hearts. Thus to stop Heartless Disease several things are required. 7 Princess of Heart (to open the pathway to Kingdom Hearts), the keyblade(s) ( to seal the door), and the defeat of all Heartless (any weapon can do). Heartless fear the keyblade only because it's made of pure light, and can never be broken, where as heartless can break other weapons.

The most obvious choice would to have
Sora = Kiri ( who is main Character of the story who holds the cure. Upbeat, resource, cheerful body, looks alot like sora to begin with)
Kairi = Elraine ( who is main female character. Sweet. Can temp cure disease, likes Kiri [thus playing on the Sokai idea])
Riku = Fallan (who is the man with mysterious past. He's done something he regrets and vows not to protect people or at least go out of his way to do it. Very stoic and cold hearted kind guy).
Sui = Roxas? (is a fight loving girl in the series. Really the only person who comes remotely close to her personality is Larxene but even then Larxene is just cruel and sadistic. Sui devious, actually still cares for people on some remote level, just not for her opponent. However her role in the story is that she's a close friend/former love interest of Kiri. So Roxas as Sora's brother would work.)
Axel = Zezu (the first bad guy you meet in the story)
Organization XIII (Or 12 in this case?) = Gazelle  ( The secret group that is somehow linked to Troy. Not much is known due to the cancellation of the series, but it works?)

This is based purely personality and abilities. Kairi makes a good Elraine because as a princess of heart she can share her heart energy (by theory) not to mention they're somewhat similar, sweet caring girls. Sora + keyblade, makes a good Kiri. For this idea the keyblade can stop the Heartless (which is the cause of the disease and for every heart released someone's heart is returned filling it with a light bright enough to keep the darkness at bay for good). Sora has a strong heart as well that resonance with Kairi (thus is the only reason why she hasn't created a nobody yet). 
Riku fits Fallan as the third wheel in a group of friends. Cold hearted by appearance he would have a soft spot for Sora just as Fallan does for Kiri. Riku is always impressed by what Sora can do. The plus side is that Sui and Fallan do not get along, the same way Riku and Roxas don't get along.
Axel as Zezu, well appearance wish they do look similar. The personality is remarkably similar as well. The Zezu is interest by Kiri in the story, similar to Axel's interest in Sora in the game (expect he was only interesting in Sora cause of Roxas...).

A variation could be Sora = Elraine, and Kairi = Kiri, where Kairi is the cure because she's a princess of heart and Sora, with his keyblade is only a temp cure because the heartless keep coming where as the princess can be used to finally seal the door. Could still have Roxas as Sora's younger brother whom Sora was visiting... or something.

This is the ideal setting and crossover... and I hate it. Selfishly it's mostly because it's an implied Sokai, which is not very high up on my list of favorite pairings. (Actually I'm fairly certain it's at the very bottom along with RoxasNamine.) I could always make it so that it isn't Sokai (but come on, they're stuck holding hands for the entire series, I will be brutally murdered if I did NOT make it sokai).

So we improvised:
Second Idea
Sora = Kiri
Riku = Elraine
Roxas = Sui
Axel = Fallan/Zezu

This idea works rather well. Sora is kiri for the same reason as above. Riku becomes Elraine only because I like Riso, and yes of course you can say in theory that Heartless disease transfer darkness into one person, thus making Riku the perfect example. It also opens the spot of Fallan so that I stick Axel there if only so that I don't have to figure out a way to have Axel=Zezu turn traitor (though that fits more with the game cannon). It also makes the Organization down to 11 people which is closer to Gazelle Organization Number (11 member, but 4 have died, making it only 7... and we could do it so that CoM organization, zexy, larx, marl, vexen are the ones who died).

But I never really like Riso as the main pairing. *blinks*

Third Idea
Axel = Elraine
Roxas = Kiri
Sora = Sui
Fallan = Riku

This one... xD Well this one is selfishly listening to my love of Akuroku. But there are many problems with this. As Roxas and Kiri share almost nothing alike except for appearance. Axel does not mix well with a cute girl character. Sora is the farest thing from Sui.

 I'm quite sure Roxas and Axel (no matter how much they will love each other later on in the story) will NOT make it through the first chapters stuck to each other. Axel will probably restore to carrying Roxas everywhere. Also I lose the beauty of Roxas and Axel's weapons (as they both use 2 weapons, which require both hands. not that I would be able to use it in the story anyways if they're holding hands)

Even with a variation of making Axel = Kiri and Roxas = Elraine, it fits a little bit better, but not by much. (Or Demyx = Sui, and Zexion = Fallan).

Still Akuroku = <3

Fourth Idea
Zexion = Elraine
Demyx = kiri
Axel = Fallan
Roxas = Sui
And possibly Sora tagging along.

This one is probably my favorite and one I'll end up doing just because it has Akuroku and Zemyx. The downside is that it's probably the hardest one due to the fact that there's no real reason for Demyx to hold the cure (as everything else can be explained by the keyblade or the princess heart theory). 

Demyx, like Sora, makes a pretty good Kiri. Zexion only works as Elraine only because like Elraine he's level-headed, small, and staring to show signs of becoming a nobody (lack of emotions). Roxas and Sora would "share" the part of Sui and playing the protective younger brothers of Demyx. Axel as Fallan allows not only Akuroku goodness but also Axel would be the perfect person to torment Demyx and Zexion.

Again the only downside is the cure. It's possible to just say that Demyx and Zexion are sharing heart energy, and that they need to travel to headquarters to save Zexion. Sora and Roxas having keyblades (ultimately the cure) is just luck that they decided to travel with their brother. Could also have it as the organization actually has the seven princess of heart capture and until their return there's no way to find Kingdom Hearts and seal it (with keyblade).


Hmmm.... Yes I think I'll go with Demyx and Zexion version. xD Tis only fair since Project Destati has Roxas and Axel the main point of view... sorta (it leans towards Zemyx in the end anyways).

File:
Resonance
Type: Information
Classification: E
Restriction: Everyone

Resonance is the bond that is form between two people. The stronger the bond, the closer you are with that person. Lifetime mates, current lover, your Abstract Reality Self (this is not noted in public file), and usually very close family members (twins for example) share the strongest bonds, followed by friendship, family, and casual/former lovers bonds, then acquaintance then lastly  people you never have met ("Chance meeting bonds").

Resonance allows you and the person you share the bond with to share thoughts, feelings, and the ability to find them wherever they are. These bonds rarely break (nothing short of death, or by theory being attacked and "killed" by heartless), though they are frail. While they never truly break (they are always, if only by, connected by a single thread) they can weaken if you and bondmate grow apart. Someone describe as simply a way of growing up. Your best friend when you were six will have a strong bond with you then, but as you both grow up and possibly find out that you two don't have as much as common and gain new and more friends, you might no longer have the same strong bond as you had when you were six. Simply you went from being best friends to friends and while you two are still connected, the bond is not as strong as you were when you six. Another good example is love. Falling in and out of love is as easy as swimming and drowning. True Heartbreak is the only way a bond will ever break, that you were hurt so bad by this person that you never want to see them again. (See File: Cloud and Sephiroth)

To simply put Resonance, the bonds you form, the people you meet,  the memories you create, and feelings you feel (in the Angel and Reaper Side) is the person heart.

Sidenote (This is not in the public file):
By theory, the Nobodies of our sister side should be able to get their heart back if they simply "live". By meeting new people, creating new bonds and memories, they should be able to "grow" back their heart. The empty hollow ache is believed to be the lost of Resonance, the disappearance of all the bonds they created and most if not all their memories. Obviously the bigger their "heart" was the bigger the ache. To "regain" their heart is establish all their bonds again and fully restore their memories. Much like "amnesia" and recovering the lost memories.
In theory, Soulreaders should have problem correcting this mistake. All that is required is said Nobody retain their "human" form. However, this should not be tested eagerly. To return a heart to a nobody means to also return all burden that comes with their previous life, and destroys all current bonds, memories, and skills to replace with the old ones, not to mention the subtle/drastic changes that may have occurred during the lost of heart, perhaps in way of thinking and personality. For some nobodies this might actually do more harm then good. It is probably better to view the lost of heart as a second chance "a clean slate" so speak.

Whee!! Oddly I'm very happy. Normally I don't like telling people it's my birthday and normally it just feels like a normal day, but for some reason I'M HAPPY! and I feel special just the way that birthdays are suppose to feel like! *dances* Maybe I symbol that I'm no longer a "teen" and now qualify as a "young adult"  Nah... *still a kid at heart* Maybe it's cause my parents actually remembered to wish me happy birthday this morning? (last couple years they don't tell me until I get home after battling school, teachers, homework and just don't care by then). Maybe it's cause my friend kept reminding me, pestering me and got me a gift on my actual birthday? Maybe it's cause everyone on mene (well the staff at least) wished me one?

I don't know, but today is a good day! (I even did halfway decent on the two tests [math and latin] that I was sure I did poor on!).

With a birthday dinner coming up and well wishes for everyone, today is just wonderful!

Goodbye 2008 and Hello 2009

:3

Happy New Years everyone. ^^ *off to play more fireworks * >3

Hello lj, I've been neglecting you.

I guess there really hasn't been much to say that didn't sound completely depressing or mene related (how pitiful my life has become).

Well there's a new layout for one thing and new mood themes.
Mother been kidnapping my account too (even though I made her a lj one) for downloading jdramas. >> << >> Kinda don't want her reading anything she shouldn't see....

On a lighter and random note, Tantei Gakuen Q was an awesome jdrama. *squeel* Ryuu is so cute! Kyuu too (they're twins in real life!!) <33
Ah if only I lived in japan and he was a little bit older. (the guy that plays ryuu is only 16).

I have totally failed math 242 and need to retake it... again. >> 
Today was registration, I'm little numb about the whole process.

It occurred to me today that I haven't even really read julie's lj for a long long long time. ((*hugs julie* wah! I'm sorry)) and that oh so important piece of info that I had known, but wasn't sure how to bring it up in a conversation was actually written in there. @.@ So... I don't have to ship your christmas gift to you, julie? (assuming you're reading this).

Anyways, I'm thinking of doing a clean up of my journal. (deleting/editing old super depressing I never want to see you again entries and probably anything that mention mene in it [I want to keep this journal clean and away from my so called internet social life]) I look and almost literally 1/10 entires is happy, the other 9 are depressing and I never want to see them again. I'll keep some (cause life isn't perfect there are going to be down sides). But there are some that me depressed by just by rereading them. There are also some that if mother continues to use this account that I never want her to see... >> 

I'm also thinking of creating a writing only lj too. (just for all the drabbles and scraps of storyline I have stuck in my head but don't have the time to sit down and write a full detailed story). But who knows. *sigh*
 

Edit: >> << >> Maybe I won't do a clean up. I didn't realize I've had this journal for 3 years. >> That's a lot to clean up when 70% of the entries are probably depressing and ones I actually want to delete... Maybe better to just bury them under a bunch of not so depressing entires. >> << >> 

I blame mother.

So... for the most part I have now finished HYD 2. >> *sigh*

Of course I missed two episodes and didn't bother watching any of season 1 and but I still blame mother for getting me hooked.

Oguri Shun <333

*rubs eyes tiredly*

I have no idea why... but I have been super exhausted lately. Like I'm always tired, but this feels like I have no energy at all. I better be careful, don't want to get sick again.  I guess I should start taking Victimin B again. Yeah... but I've been so tired that all I have the energy to do is to stare at my ds game screen or the tv. More so the tv because the ds game I'm not even playing, I have everything running on auto mode (which kinda defeats the purpose of a game). err maybe summer school, life and everything is getting to me on a subconscious level. >>
whatever, I'm more willing to believe that I'm lacking something from my diet (maybe more sleep? Haven't been going to bed too early lately. or maybe a better night of sleep? it's been hot and muggy) then it be something like my life going out of control to be the cause of it. I know I'm not stressing as much as I should be. >>

Anyways other then that, I've been very happy with The World Ends with You. I think it's a super fun game. ^^ Almost completely done. xD

for the most part life has been a little hectic. 
But I'll put that aside cause I already ranted about it somewhere else. 

I got good news. I passed the chem placement exam!! YESH!!! bwuhahahahaha that means I can get into the next class.

Over the weekend, I'll be tackling on the idea of figuring out which classes I want, and maybe, just maybe finally attempt to clean my room. We'll see all depends on work, final projects and studying of whatnots. >> 

I need a math tutor. Should really go see my TA. Gotta find his office hours now that things have cooled down a little.

Oh I didn't have a chance to do this earlier, but Kawaii Kon rocked. xD like totally. I mean sure I didn't get to go do everything and missed a few awesome events (like the concert. ><) and couldn't take my time shopping leisurely (and thus made some hasty choices). But overall it was a learning experience. I made some profit. Kinda so so since I spend more then I earn. >> but yeah. *cough* it totally covered to paying for my ticket, supplies, and table. 

Mom said I should totally write down what I know sold and stuff. Next year I'll try even try sell more stuff. It was kinda like testing the waters, I guess.

I know this stuff sells (meaning I didn't have tell every single person who walked by to buy it.)
3D origami
Spam Musubi
regular origami (cranes and whatnots)
Chibi Doodles for .50 cent

I know this stuff sells but needs some prompting from me (I know alot of people like it it, but I was like "buy the pillow it calls for you!! " before they caved and said, oh alright)
Pillows
pillow cases

I know this stuff sold, but I had a hard time convincing people to buy. Most said they already had too many or didn't need one.
Bags 

Stuff that sold that surprised me
Getting comission for 3D art
Chibi doodles. .50 cent (and getting comission)

The only problem is that it takes up a lot of room. :/ I don't want my own table through. I still think half the reason why I got people to buy was most of them were attracted to my friend's chibi's first. 
Kinda funny too. I got rid of a little junk lying in my room too. I had like fake flowers, origami I didn't know how to make anymore, tossed them into the little baskets of 3D origami, and people walked off with them. I mean yeah it sounds cheap of me but seriously it add a little flare to it. Like maybe next year, I'll bring some stuff like those freebies pencils I always get, but never use (you know the old fashion non mechanical kind xD). Part of me is like well they're free, I didn't spend money to get them, they're just stuff people have given me over the years. *shrugs* like I have those little rubber duckie necklace someone gave me. haha... o.o I'm selling my old stuff at kawaiikon.

I was gonna try with these candies that I didn't like (but others might) but I forgot them at home. ^^;;;

You never know right? 

So here's the game plan for next year (and I've already gotten started) 
3D origami (and I'm looking to find anime characters that I can do, or make my own designs *nods* already started trying to teach myself how to make Saizo the pig from Peacemaker, man squares are hard shape to get you know)
Pillows (gotta find the right design though. Pikachu was a huge hit though)
Commission for 3D art
Last of my pillow cases (cause I have two more. >> maybe I'll just keep them though)
Spam Musubi (or some type of food)

and the last one that is still kinda iffy is Art. I'm gonna try real hard this year to improve (hah what me forget about it though) and come with a few little prints and whatnots. I'm surprised people asked me to doodle for them. o.o me, my horrible art. that's like... a miracle. Though I have to admit, it was better then the guy across from us doodling stick figures. ^^;;;
I figured .50 cent doodles that don't like take forever. You know? Certainly not color. Oh no, even if I buy myself those copic pens (that are insanely expensive) like hell that I'll be able to master it in a year. >> Maybe black and white (inked) but I gotta find my pencil case. >> I don't want to buy those sakura micro pens again. Just make a few prints (if anything, have them be drawn to the my stuff). if I can improve that much. probably not. >< but doesn't hurt to try right?
It's just something takes me like... five-ten minutes (just pencil though) and it's really just the head. I dunno. if I feel like I've improved then okay, I'll gladly do it. But other then that.... well I dunno. o.o

the thing to search into the 3D art though is how to find good colored paper that isn't going to cost me much. Cause I really don't want to spray paint anything. >< and pure origami is WAY too expensive. (not unless I make minitures)
I'll check costco and stuff I hope I can find the basic colors and hopefully not have it as construction paper (too thick)

Oh note to stuff next year have this sign.

"I'm Lonely! Take Me Home! I'm only $____"
I used that for the some of the cranes and the one 3D turtle I've made. yeah people kept pointing at it until someone came by and bought it. xD the sign works wonders. <33

bwuahahaha xD

A new layout!!

And it only took two days to code everything. *dies* And there wasn't much coding and uploading needed in the first place. *dies* Though the new loveless mood themes gave me a hard time. >>

Anyways thought I change everything up. x3 <3 I've been going around changing all my layouts, backgrounds, and even wallpapers. xD

So a brand new avatar (yay!! I made it myself)
A brand new layout
New mood themes <3
A new wallpaper
A new skin (for minitokyo)

And so much more to come. xD I will change the one at work. >3

I feel so morbid and depressed but in a cute and adorable way. xD <33

*dances* x3 *still has one hour left of christmas*

Seito loves christmas.

<33

Got plenty of clothes and food.

And got a DS <3333
and my ears pierced (O.o how on earth did my friend talk me into that one) 

11/29
I got promoted on mene. o.o

xD
my internet has been down for the last two days. I finally got it back up. <3

Far much to say here.

So I'll just skip it. xD

Stab my heart make me bleed. Break my mind, make me cry. Push me beyond my breaking point, shatter I will break. 

Right.....


I've been obsessed with weird little things lately. o.o Maybe it's just my way of finding something to do now that I avoid like plague. But so far I've done/experienced/attempted/tried:

A My Little Pony Movie Spree
Obsession with the Peanut's Theme Song
Started writing Asa (OMG I don't believe it actually happening!)
Attempted to Clean my room... (and failed)
Skipped out on Kendo (but still giving a speech on kendo... which I'm winging)
Totally fine with a B average in college (funny normally I would be freaking about B average)
House (<3) 

And that's within the last two weeks alone. -.-

And I finally might have a Table partner for Kawaii Kon. o.o Not the best person I would want to go with... but better then actually playing for the entire thing myself. I just gotta make enough bags to sell and actually make a profit.... (Is hoping for 100 dollar profit too much? o.o) 

Well see what happens.

And I never though I would say this... but I actually liked Gaia's DI this month. Well only the Grunnys... but those are adorable. O.O I think I'll buy three of them when the prices drop. <3

Today I made... Four ? years on ff.net

maybe I should go write a quick little short story and post it. >>
Well depends on homework I guess...

back to that stupid speech and powerpoint. >>  Stupid cramps....

I think something is seriously wrong with how my body fuctions. o.o Either I'm not taking enough of something, or I'm eating too much of something, either way something is seriously wrong. 

First off I think my body is still trying to adjust to waking up early for school and eating breakfast. This entire summer involved me waking up late and thus skipping breakfast and I guess trying to go back to a three meals a day schedule verse two meals a day, my body isn't like it. I barely eat in the morning, my breakfast these past two weeks involved small parts like two muffins, one hotdog, or like half a sandwhich. 

And I'm always tired. I came home today at 12:30 and I slept til 6:30...... -.-  I woke up briefly inbetween to call my mom, turn to another side or turn off the tv but gah.... six HOURS?! I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight.... actually I probably will be able to... *is super exhausted still*

Then back to the matter of my appettie, I'm like hungry.. but I don't want to eat? Take today for example, I ate 1/4th of sandwich, 1/4th of bowl of soup at 7am, finally grew hungry at around 10am, ate rest of sandwich, and 1/2 of the soup that was left. Came home, didn't eat, (choose to sleep instead) woke up, hungry, stomach hurting but all I eat is three small blueberry muffins?  stomach still hurting, but don't want to eat anything. ._.

maybe I need more vitimin B for energy or something and start going to bed at like..8-9 instead of 10-11. hopefully that will help?

I need to go force some food into my body... maybe tofu will help...

O.o I became a mod on mene today. *is still in shock* I hope I make a good one. ><

Well I must say, I finally did. I went to the beach today
and surfed.

Well body board but that's not the point.

In short simple words (cause I'm tired)
it was fun.
Right next to flying an airplane on the list of crazy things I've done
but not as high as flying a glider. >>

I would go again
but I'm badly sunburnt and very sore. 

I'll wait until next summer. xD